I wrote this post a couple of months ago, and today, on #timetotalk day where everybody is encouraged to take 5 minutes to talk about mental health, I thought I’d temporarily come out of blogging retirement and publish it. Backwards: (of an object’s motion) back towards the starting point. So where am I right now. Read More


At Night

When it’s the middle of the night and I’m not allowed to sleep, I panic and I feel wretched and I slowly start to weep. The weeping turns to anger and I feel out of control, Hate myself, hate no sleep, into darkness I begin to fall. Evil words leave my mouth and cruelly abuse Read More


Tears Bubble

Tears: Lacrimation, or lachrymation, (from Latin lacrima, meaning “tear”) is the secretion of tears. Tears formed through crying are associated with strong internal emotions. Tears bubble under the surface, I will not set them free. They won’t escape, just bubble there; Always a part of me. Sadness washes over at times; Overwhelming, sudden, shock. Instead Read More



Hope: Hope is the state which promotes the desire of positive outcomes related to events and circumstances in one’s life or in the world at large. Post natal depression – when you are living it, or watching someone live it – is hell on earth. It’s dark, isolating, terrifying. Intrusive thoughts are your daily companion Read More


Jog on PND

You know you’re not welcome here anymore, Go away, get out, I’ve shown you the door. Don’t you dare come back and ruin my world, I won’t let you, I’ll stay strong for my boys and my girl. Get lost, jog on, go away, just scram, I’ve worked too hard to get well and to Read More


Guest post: Supporting Others With PND

This Christmas and New Year, I am fortunate enough to be well. I am lucky that I can see the joy in Christmas and celebrate it with gusto. But for many, I know this may not be the case at all; just like it wasn’t for me last year when I was recovering from post Read More


A Monster Ate My Mum Press Release

A MONSTER ATE MY MUM Written by Jen Faulkner A children’s book, written in rhyme, looking at Post Natal Depression from a child’s perspective. First Edition, published on 18th October 2013 Print version: £7.49 ebook: 99p An important subject, and one that can be tricky to talk about, is Post Natal Depression, which affects between Read More


Self-Publishing A Monster Ate My Mum, Part 1

For those of you who have read my blog from the very beginning, know me well or follow me on Twitter you’ll know that I have suffered, more than once, from post-natal depression. It’s a debilitating illness that affects the entire family and I was painfully aware of this after the birth of my third Read More



Insomnia: Insomnia, or sleeplessness, is a sleep disorder in which there is an inability to fall asleep or to stay asleep as long as desired. Darkness, silence, Yet my brain screams noise. Thoughts, words, Never quiet. Breathing becomes quicker, Shoulders hunched. Uncomfortable, restless. Eyes wide open. Anxiety awakens, Panic begins. Thoughts whirl, never stopping. Heart Read More



Wish: A wish is a hope or desire for something. Fictionally, wishes can be used as plot devices. In folklore, opportunities for “making a wish” or for wishes to “come true” or “be granted” are themes that are sometimes used. So if you’ve followed me on Twitter today you’ll know I’ve had a bad day, Read More