Have not had many feelings,
For so long they disappeared,
And if I felt a feeling,
It was strange, bizarre, so weird.
The tablets took it all away,
Made me feel quite blank,
But they meant that I could function,
And not feel quite so rank.
Made those dark days disappear,
Trudging through treacle no more,
Made me want to live again,
Not run screaming through my front door.
Am now I’m learning to feel again,
Happiness, sadness, each one,
And learning how to live a life,
I thought forever gone.
Those tablets saved me once before,
Got me back on track,
For now they’re gone, out of my life,
But I know they might be back.
Today I’m feeling happy,
And positive at last,
I’ll hide those dark dark feelings,
And consign them to my past.
I know I am recovering,
It’s refreshing how clearly I see things,
And I know I am so lucky,
To be enjoying these positive feelings.