Have not had many feelings,
For so long they disappeared,
And if I felt a feeling,
It was strange, bizarre, so weird.

The tablets took it all away,
Made me feel quite blank,
But they meant that I could function,
And not feel quite so rank.

Made those dark days disappear,
Trudging through treacle no more,
Made me want to live again,
Not run screaming through my front door.

Am now I’m learning to feel again,
Happiness, sadness, each one,
And learning how to live a life,
I thought forever gone.

Those tablets saved me once before,
Got me back on track,
For now they’re gone, out of my life,
But I know they might be back.

Today I’m feeling happy,
And positive at last,
I’ll hide those dark dark feelings,
And consign them to my past.

I know I am recovering,
It’s refreshing how clearly I see things,
And I know I am so lucky,
To be enjoying these positive feelings.

32 Comments on Feelings

  1. Verily Victoria Vocalises (Vevivos)
    March 28, 2013 at 10:04 am (11 years ago)

    What an absolutely fantastic poem. So well written. The words gave me goosebumps. I love this. Thank you so much for linking up with Prose For Thought xx

    • instinctivemum
      March 28, 2013 at 10:06 am (11 years ago)

      Thank you for reading, and for giving me the inspiration to write more poetry! X

  2. judithkingston
    March 28, 2013 at 10:11 am (11 years ago)

    It must be amazing to come out the other side of such dark times and to rediscover feelings, good and bad. Yay! Thanks for sharing your lovely poem!

    • instinctivemum
      March 28, 2013 at 10:42 am (11 years ago)

      It’s good to share lol! And thank you for reading! X

  3. dragonsflypoppy
    March 28, 2013 at 11:18 am (11 years ago)

    What a beautiful picture this paints of feelings many of us know only too well. Thank you for sharing it with us xx

    • instinctivemum
      March 28, 2013 at 11:22 am (11 years ago)

      It makes me so sad that so many of us have to suffer. Thank you for reading x

  4. Helen Braid
    March 28, 2013 at 11:46 am (11 years ago)

    I’m so glad you found something which helped, and that this is now a brighter day. Beautiful, honest words xx

    • instinctivemum
      March 28, 2013 at 12:48 pm (11 years ago)

      Thank you x Am really enjoying #prose4T thank you for suggesting I join in with it xx

  5. Okesanne
    March 28, 2013 at 1:33 pm (11 years ago)

    Lovely poem which expresses so much x

  6. Fee
    March 28, 2013 at 4:20 pm (11 years ago)

    Beautifully honest xx

    • instinctivemum
      March 28, 2013 at 5:33 pm (11 years ago)

      Best way to be x thank you for reading x

  7. Jaime Oliver
    March 28, 2013 at 8:56 pm (11 years ago)

    Fantastic poem! I know these feelings well!!

    • instinctivemum
      March 28, 2013 at 10:40 pm (11 years ago)

      Ah bless,tough isn’t it?! Thanks for reading xx

  8. Notmyyearoff
    March 29, 2013 at 9:35 am (11 years ago)

    Really shows the journey you’ve had. Some very lovely and honest words there. Xx

    • instinctivemum
      March 29, 2013 at 9:41 am (11 years ago)

      Oh yes, and what a journey! One I will come out of stronger! Thank you for reading x

  9. muminahurry
    March 30, 2013 at 10:18 pm (11 years ago)

    That is such a lovely, well written poem!!! Describes exactly how I’ve felt at my worst and also in the good times. U r very talented!

    • instinctivemum
      March 31, 2013 at 5:51 pm (11 years ago)

      Thank you!! Long may the good times continue xx

  10. fireflyphil
    April 4, 2013 at 3:31 am (11 years ago)

    I can tell that this is written from the heart. I love poetry like that!

  11. Emma Day
    April 4, 2013 at 3:38 pm (11 years ago)

    Very well written. I’m afraid I can’t identify with it as I only suffered depression in my teens and I chose not to take tablets, but I can feel the honesty and the rawness in your words. I am so glad you are better. Thankyou for linking up to Wednesday Words xx

    • InstinctiveMum
      April 4, 2013 at 8:48 pm (11 years ago)

      My pleasure. Thank you for reading x

  12. Kayleigh
    February 6, 2014 at 11:10 am (10 years ago)

    The beginning explains exactly how I feel and have felt for months.
    But the end gives me hope.
    Thank you xxx

    • instinctivemum
      February 19, 2014 at 2:38 pm (10 years ago)

      Always a pleasure to give hope, you’re welcome xx


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